Trigger warning: This article contains descriptions of depression and mentions of suicide

My name is Jackie, and going to share the story of my incredible canine partner, Kingston. For eight wonderful years, Kingston was right by my side, saving my life more times than I can count. Sadly, he passed away in July, and my heart is broken. With Christmas coming up, I find myself missing him even more.

From Independence to Isolation 

They say Christmas is ‘the most wonderful time of the year,’ but after sustaining life-changing injuries at work, it became anything but wonderful for me. Back in 2007, while I was working as a Metropolitan Police officer, I was attacked on duty and suffered a traumatic head injury. I was diagnosed with Cauda Equina Syndrome and Spinal Stenosis, which meant I had to start using a wheelchair full-time. Suddenly, my independence was gone. I had to rely on 24-hour care and felt like a burden to my family. The daily physical pain and the inability to do simple tasks really took a toll on my mental health. All I could think about was ending my life.

Feeling alone and isolated at Christmas 

That first Christmas after my injury was really tough. Even though I was surrounded by people, I felt isolated and alone, stuck in my wheelchair. I couldn’t do things like Christmas shopping or seeing the lights by myself anymore. I might have looked fine to friends and family, but I was struggling with depression. I put on a brave face, but inside, I felt lost and alone.

The moment my life changed

I’ll never forget 12 October 2015, the day I was partnered with Kingston. Our bond was instant, and he changed my life forever. Kingston could do almost anything. He helped me with daily tasks likegetting dressed, doing laundry, and grocery shopping. With his help, I began to regain my independence and confidence.

Our first Christmas together 

My first Christmas with Kingston was unforgettable. Just two days before Christmas, my Personal Assistant quit, leaving me without care. Kingston stepped in, helping me with everything, from Christmas shopping to opening presents. We even stopped at the Christmas lights for a hot chocolate. Kingston made me feel part of the Christmas festivities again. He saved my Christmas.

Christmas traditions  

During Christmas 2017, we started volunteering for the homeless, making it a yearly tradition. Kingston, dressed in his Santa Paws suit, would help distribute care packages filled with hygiene items, hats, scarves, and treats for dogs. He personally handed out these packages to homeless individuals, many of whom had dogs themselves. A black Labrador with a giant heart, he let everyone know they were going to be okay.

Kingston’s passing

On 10 June 2024, my vet diagnosed Kingston with terminal kidney cancer. From that day on, every second became precious, and I made sure to tell him I loved him every day. He officially retired as my assistance dog but remained dedicated until the end.

Looking ahead with hope

Life without Kingston feels unimaginable. He was a huge part of my life, and his absence leaves a big hole in my heart. I’ll rely on family and friends for support, but it won’t be the same. I’m waiting for a successor dog, but I know it will be a long wait.

I’m still hopeful about the future, thanks to Kingston. I’ll continue to spread awareness of Canine Partners’ life-changing work and share my story in tribute to Kingston’s enormous impact on my life. There are people on the waiting list who desperately need a canine partner to help with everyday tasks and feel less isolated, not just at Christmas, but all year round.

Thank you for reading my story. With best wishes for Christmas and the New Year,  

Jackie Kennedy 

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